This week has been interesting, to say the least. Apparently, it wasn't enough that I was starting classes again, but the universe decided to throw a cold at me too. Well, since I haven't been sick in over 3 years, I guess I was due...
Here's my rule of thumb: when you're sick, calories don't count. Eat what you can, when you can.
So while I haven't been binging per se, I have been eating pretty much what I wanted. Yes, I really did have ice cream for dinner for a couple days. And no, I don't feel bad about it.
Yesterday, after being cooped up in the house for a few days, I decided I needed to get out, no matter how crappy I felt. It was Labor Day, and since stores have sales, I went to Kohls' to see if I could find a second pair of jeans (I currently only have 1 pair that fits). In the fitting room, I had 2 pairs of Levi's, size 14 and size 12. I mostly grabbed the 12s to see how far I was from closing them.
I put on the 14s and they fit great on the waist. They were tight on the thigh, but that's what boot cut does no matter what size. I figured there was no point in trying on the 12s since there was little hope that I would get them up over my waist. I put on a couple shirts that I liked too and the larges were WAAAAAY too big! Bonus! So I was quite happy with being in size 14 jeans and having to buy medium shirts! Then I turned around. The size 14 jeans were still on the hanger.
"Did I bring in 2 size 14s??"
I furiously searched the jeans I was wearing to find the tag inside the pants (I don't trust the hanging tags).
Holy crap! I actually had to sit there for a second and process this. I was wearing a size 12 again. That did not compute! Just 3 months ago I was tight in size 16s, and now I'm in a 12???
My brain said "you should buy them because they're a size 12." I stood up and looked closely in the mirror to see how the jeans actually looked on me. While I would love to say that I looked fantastic in them, I can't. Bootcut jeans just make me look like I have an hourglass figure in my legs. I already have that figure on top, I don't need to add more curves at my knees and ankles, thank you very much. They were faded across the butt, with really big pockets, so they made my butt look big and my hips look funny.
I thought "I'm not going to buy them just because they're a size 12. They don't look good and make me look bigger than I am."
I happily put them back on the rack, exchanged the shirts for mediums and picked up a sweater I was eyeing instead.
I was thrilled to be in a size 12, but now I need to find the right cut of jeans. I am not working my flabby gut off to look bad in clothing that has a small tag size! I want to show off all my hard work in a positive way. No one sees the tag size but me anyway, so the number doesn't matter, it's how I look.
When I got home and stepped on the scale, I was pleasantly surprised to see that I didn't do any lasting damage while sick!
1. September 6, 2010 - start week 15
2. +.4 pounds
3. 15.0 pounds lost total
4. Current weight: 175.8
And today I signed up for Bridal Bootcamp, starting on the 20th! 10 weeks, 3 times a week! By Halloween, I'll be laughing at the size 12s!