Sunday, July 25, 2010

A River of Tears

After my last post, I hopped in my car and excitedly drove to weigh in. I knew I had lost weight, I could just feel it, and I was really happy.

Little did I know what the scale would show.

When I stood on the scale, and saw the numbers, I started crying. The WW lady came around and hugged me, because I was crying so hard.

Here's why I was crying:

1. July 23, 2010 - start week 8
2. -2.6 pounds this week
3. 11.2 pounds lost total
4. Current weight:  179.6

Not only did I lose weight, but I hit my first target; 5% loss! My 5% target was 10 lbs, so not only did I achieve it, but I blew past it! I haven't seen the 170's in about a year and a half. And in 7 weeks, I'm back there! If I can keep this up, I might make my 10% target (19 lbs) by the end of August, and I can hit my ultimate goal by the end of the year!

I cried almost the entire way home because of how happy I was to see that number, but also how proud I am for sticking to this. I am finally saying goodbye to the Fat Girl, the one in my head and the one in the mirror.

Friday, July 23, 2010


Okay, I forgot to blog last week about my weigh in. Oopsie!

As I stated before, we did have a death in the family. So through all the events that surrounded that, I was not paying too much attention to what I was eating. To be fair, I was pretty distracted.

So when I went for my weigh in last week, it did not come as a big surprise that I did not lose any weight. I went up .2 lbs, so in the grand scheme of things, that is not even a blip on the radar. It was probably due to the fact that I was drinking regular soda and was most likely retaining water, and the fact that I didn't work or exercise. All in all, it could have been much worse, so I'm pleased.

I'm heading out the door in a few minutes for my next weigh in. I'm hoping this week went better, seeing as I've been keeping my food journal and paying attention to what I've been eating.

So last week's numbers:

1. July 16, 2010 - start week 7
2. +.2 pounds this week
3. 8.6 pounds lost total
4. Current weight:  182.2

Yesterday I decided to try on some clothes that I wore before I started WW. I was especially interested to try on the dress I wore to my best friends wedding, just 4 days before starting WW. I was actively in tears (of joy!) because when I put it on, I was swimming in it! I can grab a handful of material on the waist!! I measured my waist and am down 1.5" in 2 weeks!!!  HOLY CRAP!!!  I also was able to fit into clothes that I haven't worn in a minimum of 6-8 months!!  And because of that, I have never been this excited to go out and step on a scale in public!

Also, the hunnie just came in and told me that he's down about 6 lbs in 2 weeks!  He's been put on WW and just doesn't know it yet... teehee... hey, he eats what I cook, and I cook what's WW friendly! :)

Monday, July 12, 2010

Belated Update...

Sorry about the lateness of my posting, but there has been a death in my family this past weekend, so I've been a bit preoccupied...

For the last couple weeks, I haven't been writing down everything I'm eating. In fact, I'm not writing down anything at all. *hangs head in shame*  But I am keeping track mentally of what I'm eating, and I think making decent choices (hey, I only ate some of the french fries!). Alas, I need to get back to journaling because it really was helping me. I'm starting to find myself rewarding good food/exercise choices with junk food. Not good. I must stop.

Work has been my saving grace (sort of). I haven't been exercising like I was 2 weeks ago, but I'm still on my feet running around for 8-10 hours 4 days a week, so that's better than nothing. But still, if I were at the gym on just those other 3 days a week, that would be better. I am starting to feel guilty about not going to the gym, or even out for a walk. Especially because we've picked a date for the 5k and I've got to get in shape!  I would love to be able to run the whole thing, but I'm being realistic and just don't want to walk the whole thing.

And it's been difficult because I haven't been able to get to the store yet (combination of time constraints and lack of funds), so I'm just kind of eating what we've got. I am noticing that I'm getting fuller A LOT faster, and have no problems with keeping my portions small.  The biggest challenge has been eating lunch at work. I've been going to the cafeteria, and it's hard to make good decisions when you can smell the griddle and deep fryer. I've started going to the other cafe instead, which has none of those things, and a lot more salad choices.

So, with that said, we are off the the grocery store (FINALLY!) and here are last week's numbers:

1. July 9, 2010 - start week 6
2. 1.4 pound lost this week
3. 8.8 pounds lost total!
4. Current weight:  182.0!
*hoping to hit the 10lb mark this week!!!

Bonus this week: I went back to Old Navy, and I fit into a size 14 in 3 different styles of pants! I've lost 1.5 inches off my waist and a total of 3.25 inches overall!!

Sunday, July 4, 2010

Keep the fridge stocked.

While trying to become nocturnal yesterday (I have to work overnights for the next couple days), I noticed I was eating because I was really, really bored. The only problem being, I haven't gone to the store in a few days, so I didn't have my usual mindless snacking foods. So what did I eat, you ask? Everything. Anything I could get my hands onto. By the time I realized what I was doing, it was 2 am, and I was so exhausted I decided well, I have to stay up a bit more, so I'll just have a bagel. With butter. Lots of butter. And a soda.


I would go to the store right now, but it's the 4th of July, and I have no idea if any grocery stores are even open.  My only hope is to distract myself with something to do before I binge again!

Maybe I'll go for a run. Or clean the house. I don't know.

Happy 4th of July everyone!

Thursday, July 1, 2010

I guess I can have my cake and eat it too.

After a crazy busy birthday weekend, I was really nervous about my weigh in yesterday. I didn't eat the healthiest, I didn't track my points, and I drank a fair amount of alcohol. So I had resigned myself to the idea that I probably wasn't going to lose much weight this week.

I actually found more pleasure in having a bit of everything that was offered at the party, instead of having huge helpings of my favorites and then wallowing in my own piggy-ness.

Although, since I'm being honest... after I weighed in yesterday and went to work, I had sausage pizza for dinner and two brownies at home. Oh, and a real A&W root beer (man that was tasty!). I thought I was going to be sick. So much sugar left me feeling pretty vomitous. Ugh. Lesson learned.

So for now, I've learned a couple lessons: eating samples of everything on a buffet = not that bad. Eating a LOT of sugar = feeling gross.

1. July 1, 2010 - start week 5
2. 1 pound lost this week
3. 7.4 pounds lost total!
4. Current weight:  183.4

And I realized that I weighed 195 lbs during my finals week (the beginning of May)!  So, I've lost a grand total so far of 12 pounds!  Woohoo!!!